A manor, a series of tasks and a pin that filled with color when each was complete. Truthfully, if you wanted to see it I could show you my memory of it in dreams though I know not all on sensitIV sleep.
Though most importantly I did learn that you feel as if you don't have anyone to confide in. Or at the very least speak your worries to. I would like to rectify that.
And of course not. That would feel exceedingly disingenuous, I imagine. My goal is not to pry into your life anymore than you feel comfortable with. It is to ensure you have someone to talk to when the need arises. We are not meant to be creatures of solidarity and your path is more difficult than most.
Though I am aware you know of my relationship between myself and Noah. Perhaps even Thancred. I know that sours it a little.
A mix of reasons. I personally am fond of you. Yvette cares for you deeply. And for all the effort, all that you try, you do deserve a little happiness out of all this. Feeling isolated will only hinder that.
That was before. Some is spillover from Yvette truthfully. But you did find a peaceful solution in my ideal illusion. And you also helped myself and Cosmo after our exploration into heaven.
But in your soul I did see how incredibly lonely you were. The betrayals that you felt. Thus I was moved into action.
I am aware that this takes time and willingness on both participants and that I do give off an air of being insincere at times. But do consider this meeting an olive branch of sorts.
...Noah only ever mentioned that he had history with someone on BARiTONES, but that he'd agreed with them not to take it out on each other's units. He never said who it was - you two just weren't exactly subtle about it when you interacted, that's all.
Does that agreement still hold up? Whatever's said stays in confidence - and doesn't get brought into games?
Yes, as much as it is my power. I can't predict truth effects or such methods. And if you need further assurance I'm quite certain we can get a contract.
And our quarrel has spilled to so many on our own star, tainting countless. I have no desire to inflict that on anyone else here unless they wish to involve themselves.
I am actually under contract not to say specifics. But there are those from other stars in which I share my knowledge and they share theirs in turn. This is all for the benefit of us reaching our respective goals.
His gaze slides to the ground. Because it's true; it's hard to trust, even - sometimes, especially - Chrys.]
I know he's still keeping things secret. I don't know if he'll ever tell me them, even if I do get all my memories back.
But... for some reason, I just know... he thought about me, even just a little, before he died. Maybe it's stupid. Maybe I'll end up regretting it. But... I want to be able to trust him this time.
It's the least I could do when I never tried believing in him back home.
I am glad you have that. A chance and faith to put into someone else. Though I would speak to him of it if he is receptive. It might help cement if the decision the right one.
I told you heart and Yvette that I don't necessarily need to be you confidant, just that you have someone to talk to and lean on.
And I know the knowledge I have is personal and truthfully I should not be privy to it. So if at a time you do not wish for me to have it, I can ask BARiTONES to remove it.
Mm, there's some things at least that should probably be kept quiet, but... I don't think you'd especially gain much from that information in particular.
That is to say, I think Yvette would also appreciate it if you didn't talk to just anyone about me being a devil. It caused a lot of problems, and some of them directly impacted her since she was with Chrys all the time.
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Though most importantly I did learn that you feel as if you don't have anyone to confide in. Or at the very least speak your worries to. I would like to rectify that.
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I only sleep when Yvette takes care of my dreams. And...
Are you saying you just want me to unload all my problems right here and now?
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And of course not. That would feel exceedingly disingenuous, I imagine. My goal is not to pry into your life anymore than you feel comfortable with. It is to ensure you have someone to talk to when the need arises. We are not meant to be creatures of solidarity and your path is more difficult than most.
Though I am aware you know of my relationship between myself and Noah. Perhaps even Thancred. I know that sours it a little.
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...Why are you doing all of this for me, even knowing that?
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Okay, I've got to ask - you saw my heart, and you're fond of me? How'd that one happen?
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he doesn't remember much but he's pretty sure his heart would've shown some big distrust there!!]
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But in your soul I did see how incredibly lonely you were. The betrayals that you felt. Thus I was moved into action.
I am aware that this takes time and willingness on both participants and that I do give off an air of being insincere at times. But do consider this meeting an olive branch of sorts.
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[But it's mostly a filler comment, giving himself some time to think of a proper response.]
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Does that agreement still hold up? Whatever's said stays in confidence - and doesn't get brought into games?
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And our quarrel has spilled to so many on our own star, tainting countless. I have no desire to inflict that on anyone else here unless they wish to involve themselves.
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[Which is the important part, really.]
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I assume this question is to prevent yourself from causing harm to your departed unit mates.
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But... I can agree to those terms.
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And to start, I imagine you have some ideas on what to do when you leave the Production. Perhaps it is best to start with those.
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Go to another world with Chrysanthemum. Whether or not we'll need treatment kind of depends on some other factors, but it's a possibility.
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So I will ask again, how much do you trust him?
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His gaze slides to the ground. Because it's true; it's hard to trust, even - sometimes, especially - Chrys.]
I know he's still keeping things secret. I don't know if he'll ever tell me them, even if I do get all my memories back.
But... for some reason, I just know... he thought about me, even just a little, before he died. Maybe it's stupid. Maybe I'll end up regretting it. But... I want to be able to trust him this time.
It's the least I could do when I never tried believing in him back home.
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I told you heart and Yvette that I don't necessarily need to be you confidant, just that you have someone to talk to and lean on.
And I know the knowledge I have is personal and truthfully I should not be privy to it. So if at a time you do not wish for me to have it, I can ask BARiTONES to remove it.
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That is to say, I think Yvette would also appreciate it if you didn't talk to just anyone about me being a devil. It caused a lot of problems, and some of them directly impacted her since she was with Chrys all the time.
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