bondsofsuffering | Imeeji IC Contact;

[He gives a soft laugh, but it isn't particularly happy.]

...I know. But seeing all that...

Well, that's why I decided I'd just return home in the first place.

What did you see?

Do you know what happens in our world, when something or someone tries to kill Chrys or me?

No, but I am waiting to hear the horrific details. Do go on.

...

In our world, Chrys is the only person who can kill me, and there isn't anyone who should be able to kill him. No matter how unlikely it was, somehow, we'd survive, even if it took a miracle.

The last memory I took, I remembered waking up in a hospital. I'd tried so, so many times to die, but I kept surviving no mattered what I did. So... I even gave up on giving up. The only thing left for me was to wait to see what would come first: Chrys killing me, or my body deteriorating until there was no way for me to continue living.

Even though I had all these big dreams, I'd become someone truly pathetic. I didn't see any reason to try to salvage that. There was nothing worth saving.

Do not be hard on yourself for those moments. No one is made to bear burdens alone.

You are no long bereft of opportunity, but your illness does pose a challenge. Could one of you wish for both of your healing and the other a new star?

One of my unitmates promised to handle it with his wish, actually. He... wants to make sure I can do whatever makes me happy after this, and he was planning to take the hell graduation anyway, so he decided to use his wish on me - on us.

If that really does go through... we'll be free to take the heaven graduation and go wherever we want.

[The words are halting; he's still not even sure if he can completely believe in it, and it reflects in his voice. But he's trying to be even a little optimistic for once.]

Truly? Which one was that. I'd like to shake their hand at such a kind gesture.

You seem hesitant.

Levi. SensitIV's own most honorable member.

[For better and for worse.]

Historically things don't tend to just work out conveniently for me like that.

I have no doubts that your road to the life you wish to live will be fraught with difficulty. But you are taking the first step, and taking it with an ally and friend besides.

Whatever happens, I do believe whatever this path leads is far better than the one you are leaving behind.

...Here's hoping, at least.

[Hoping is so, so hard. But maybe this time...]

[He pats the top of his head.]

One day at a time.

[Patted. He doesn't seem to dislike it, at least.]

...So do you normally dispense advice like this in your universe, too, or is that a more recent development?

I do to less joyous ends, but yes. At least in recent memory. I find myself offering more advice here.

In the end, it is just advice. For you to take or leave at your whim.

How often would you say people do take your advice?

[He's curious!]

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Rarely.

Though I imagine it is because I seem dishonest.

So it's a frequent issue!

[And he wasn't the only one!!]

This form was chosen to inspire, govern, and lead where the power of might ruled all. It comes with its disadvantages.

That does explain some things. Plus, politics tend to require a certain amount of shadiness anyway.

Precisely. I would not recommend a career in it, truthfully. Unless you were Cardinal where they seem to thrive.

There's been enough people from my family messing with the world as is. No need to add to that.

Then I believe your course is set. One that I think you will enjoy reaping the benefits of.

Here's hoping.

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