[ breathes out and answers more slowly after that, weighing his words ]
I know you thought it was — justified, or whatever. But it wasn't right. You guys were in an impossible situation. There was no right or wrong answer. You had no way of knowing that we can't die on this ship for real. And you had no way of knowing what was happening to me. I shouldn't have made it sound like the choice was either come back for me, or don't. It was never that simple.
You had to pick what you could live with. And even though I wish it'd ended differently, I'm really glad you did. I'm glad you get to know that you tried everything you could. I'm glad you don't have to live with killing someone and wondering if it could've gone differently. And I know you made the best choice you could, 'cause you're Snow and you're the smartest and kindest person I've ever met. No one could've figured it out any better than you did. It's not your fault that the situation was rigged.
I don't want you to think I'm angry with you about any of that, 'cause I'm not. And I don't want you to think you're going to have to make choices based on — like, what's going to upset me or not. You've always been there for me. But I'm here for you too, you know? Now and always.
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[ breathes out and answers more slowly after that, weighing his words ]
I know you thought it was — justified, or whatever. But it wasn't right. You guys were in an impossible situation. There was no right or wrong answer. You had no way of knowing that we can't die on this ship for real. And you had no way of knowing what was happening to me. I shouldn't have made it sound like the choice was either come back for me, or don't. It was never that simple.
You had to pick what you could live with. And even though I wish it'd ended differently, I'm really glad you did. I'm glad you get to know that you tried everything you could. I'm glad you don't have to live with killing someone and wondering if it could've gone differently. And I know you made the best choice you could, 'cause you're Snow and you're the smartest and kindest person I've ever met. No one could've figured it out any better than you did. It's not your fault that the situation was rigged.
I don't want you to think I'm angry with you about any of that, 'cause I'm not. And I don't want you to think you're going to have to make choices based on — like, what's going to upset me or not. You've always been there for me. But I'm here for you too, you know? Now and always.
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Aster...
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Well, I already knew most of that. But it's nice getting to hear it straight from you.
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One of these days, I'm actually going to surprise you.
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-It's still important, I think. Saying it clearly - or getting it off your chest, too.
Thanks for making sure I knew, Aster. ...And, I'm glad you had some time to think over the decision we made, too.
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I hope not, 'cause I meant it about needing you. But it's also...
[ there are things you can simply get away with saying to cinth that you cannot to snow, and "i was too weak but i won't be now" is one of them ]
...I'm here to listen to you too, you know? Whatever you're dealing with. Don't think I've been too reliable on that front, but I'm working on it.
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[THINKINGFACE.]
I guess there was something that bothered me a little recently...
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There was?
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You and Cinth snuck out the other day, didn't you? What happened?
[Look. You knew this was coming.]
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his expression journey very "we what?" and then "oh yeah that" ]
Oh. We just talked out in the hallway a little bit. Nothing huge.
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[Continues staring, expectant.]
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[And right after they JUST discussed this.]
...Well, I guess that's alright.
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Is that good news?
[He is picking up on how ominous it is Aster did not bring it up on his own.]
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Okay, okay, just...don't freak out.
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I jumped off the ship yesterday. Earlier, before I talked to Cinth.
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