bondsofsuffering | limelight

I jumped off the ship yesterday. Earlier, before I talked to Cinth.

[Look at him doing so good at not freaking out, even if he obviously tenses.]

...And what happened?

I landed in the water.

[ see? it's fine. ]

Had someone around to fish me out. So, I don't recommend it, but like...there's no Blessing or anything keeping us onboard. As far as I can tell, anyway.

[Just going to wait and see if Aster wants to explain any more than that on his own.]

[ nope! ]

...

When I don't know what's going on, I just worry more imagining things, you know.

[ HE REALLY DOUBTS THAT IN THIS CASE ]

I mean, it was...a really stupid idea, I know. I won't be trying it again. But I wanted to be see just how stuck we really are. If there were some easy way out, and we'd just been waiting around, getting tortured in performances...it was making me crazy to think about.

I don't blame you.

Where'd you jump down from, anyway?

[ maybe if he says this super casually, snow won't think about the basic physics here, ]

The decks. Open air and all.

[Well the good news is he isn't freaking out!

The bad news is he knows basic physics, and it shows when he looks away because ok well he knows how that went now.]

[ breathes out slow, says, softer, ]

Sorry. I'm fine.

[He wrenches his gaze back to Aster. See? Not freaking out.]

...Mm. If you're sure.

What would you have done if I'd said I was interested in trying it myself - just to see?

What do you want me to say?

[ doesn't actually sound frustrated, despite those words ]

That it was stupid to try? It was. That it was desperate? It was that, too. The details? Believe me, there's such thing as knowing too much.

...but if you really want to know more, just ask me, and I'll tell you.

I'm not calling you stupid.

[Immediate. And then, softer:]

I know what happens when a body hits water from this height, Aster. ...It's not a soft landing.

...I told you. I just end up imagining all kinds of worries on my own.

Even ones as gruesome - or worse than that.

[ he reaches out for both of snow's hands. this is going to suck to hear, and to say, but holding hands might help. might be something, anyway. ]

I didn't actually count, but I definitely broke some...probably a lot...of bones on impact. Ribs for sure. They started trying to un-break, which is a super creepy thing you probably know more about than I do. And...I mean, yeah, I went under long enough to...

[ "drown a little" ]

...you really want to hear me say it?

[His hands are free for taking - and if he squeezes a little hard as he hears that, well, don't mind it.]

...

I think that, whatever you say about it now--

It would be scarier knowing my friends could die horribly, repeatedly, without me ever knowing.

[So just tell him, please.]

[ squeezing back just as hard ]

...drowned, yeah. It would've been worse if I didn't have help. Not like the ship stopped moving or anything while that was going on. [ ... ] I went to the healing pools afterwards, and I slept the rest of it off yesterday.

[Okay. Well, now he knows.

He is also going to try to get his hands out of Aster's grasp so he can hug him tightly instead.]

[ yeah, let's hug about it ]

[Time to hug! And probably bury his face in Aster's shoulder while he's at it.]

[ oh.

shifts his hold a little to accommodate that, lifts a hand to snow's hair to gently pet...not unlike snow did for him, just a few days ago ]

[Muffled, into his shoulder:]

Just tell me next time, okay?

Don't leave me wondering.

[ opens his mouth to protest next time, reconsiders ]

Sorry. I'll tell you from now on. I just didn't want to...stress you out even more than you've already been lately.

I can tell when you guys are hiding stuff. Trust me, it just stresses me out more.

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