[ breathes out and answers more slowly after that, weighing his words ]
I know you thought it was — justified, or whatever. But it wasn't right. You guys were in an impossible situation. There was no right or wrong answer. You had no way of knowing that we can't die on this ship for real. And you had no way of knowing what was happening to me. I shouldn't have made it sound like the choice was either come back for me, or don't. It was never that simple.
You had to pick what you could live with. And even though I wish it'd ended differently, I'm really glad you did. I'm glad you get to know that you tried everything you could. I'm glad you don't have to live with killing someone and wondering if it could've gone differently. And I know you made the best choice you could, 'cause you're Snow and you're the smartest and kindest person I've ever met. No one could've figured it out any better than you did. It's not your fault that the situation was rigged.
I don't want you to think I'm angry with you about any of that, 'cause I'm not. And I don't want you to think you're going to have to make choices based on — like, what's going to upset me or not. You've always been there for me. But I'm here for you too, you know? Now and always.
Re: day 217ish
[ breathes out and answers more slowly after that, weighing his words ]
I know you thought it was — justified, or whatever. But it wasn't right. You guys were in an impossible situation. There was no right or wrong answer. You had no way of knowing that we can't die on this ship for real. And you had no way of knowing what was happening to me. I shouldn't have made it sound like the choice was either come back for me, or don't. It was never that simple.
You had to pick what you could live with. And even though I wish it'd ended differently, I'm really glad you did. I'm glad you get to know that you tried everything you could. I'm glad you don't have to live with killing someone and wondering if it could've gone differently. And I know you made the best choice you could, 'cause you're Snow and you're the smartest and kindest person I've ever met. No one could've figured it out any better than you did. It's not your fault that the situation was rigged.
I don't want you to think I'm angry with you about any of that, 'cause I'm not. And I don't want you to think you're going to have to make choices based on — like, what's going to upset me or not. You've always been there for me. But I'm here for you too, you know? Now and always.