[Ayumu clings a little tighter as Hizumi speaks, responding to the despair and helplessness Hizumi's remembering by trying to act as a support.

Or maybe just because he felt a little of that, himself.]

Even like that.... I didn't... I wouldn't have let you, Hizumi. I wouldn't have.

[It's meant as reassurance, but it's hard to sound reassuring when he knew his reason wasn't out of a real desire to protect Hizumi or anyone else. He swallows against the weight in his throat, and Hizumi can probably feel it from his position.]

I wanted.... to keep you. All to myself. [Away from anyone else who could take him from him.] I thought.... we could go back to how we should be. Or at least...

[At least, he wouldn't be alone, even if captivity made Hizumi suffer more.]