[He settles into that embrace, burying his face in Ayumu's shoulder. His voice is muffled somewhat, but they're so close it hardly matters.]
Bein' like that... Bein' the Devil...
No matter how it happens, it's like there's no other option but despair. Despair over humanity, over the world...
The only options are to destroy everything, or destroy yourself. But if you destroy yourself, you can't do what you were supposed to. But, if you live...
You have to live as a monster.
[Both options were a bust. Live the awful, heinous life as a Devil? Or fail to complete the job by seeking the only possible death?]
Thoughts like that... I must've turned them around a million times in my head durin' it all.
[Even now, he can feel the thoughts lingering. Even now, he can feel the shadows creeping on the edge of his mind. Memories of fury and despair and helplessness.]
no subject
Bein' like that... Bein' the Devil...
No matter how it happens, it's like there's no other option but despair. Despair over humanity, over the world...
The only options are to destroy everything, or destroy yourself. But if you destroy yourself, you can't do what you were supposed to. But, if you live...
You have to live as a monster.
[Both options were a bust. Live the awful, heinous life as a Devil? Or fail to complete the job by seeking the only possible death?]
Thoughts like that... I must've turned them around a million times in my head durin' it all.
[Even now, he can feel the thoughts lingering. Even now, he can feel the shadows creeping on the edge of his mind. Memories of fury and despair and helplessness.]