[The answer comes all too quickly, even as he curls an arm around Ayumu in turn.]
Even if those feelings were twisted... They're still there.
[And despite his carefully level tone, his grip tightens ever so slightly with those words.
No, not all of the blame could be placed on him alone, and he realizes that. But all the same, he knows that those feelings came from somewhere, and that intent to do anything - everything he could to keep his most precious people here had their roots in something very, very real. And while he's known and even rationalized his thoughts on the matter long ago, actually acting upon them...
That scares him, and not just because of just how easily he'd been influenced into it.]
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[The answer comes all too quickly, even as he curls an arm around Ayumu in turn.]
Even if those feelings were twisted... They're still there.
[And despite his carefully level tone, his grip tightens ever so slightly with those words.
No, not all of the blame could be placed on him alone, and he realizes that. But all the same, he knows that those feelings came from somewhere, and that intent to do anything - everything he could to keep his most precious people here had their roots in something very, very real. And while he's known and even rationalized his thoughts on the matter long ago, actually acting upon them...
That scares him, and not just because of just how easily he'd been influenced into it.]